"Evangelism: Reaching out through relationships" 读后感

Hi, Blog.

It's being a while I missed you. This time, I would like to write in English, to practice my English.

I read a book this morning about "Evangelism: Reaching out through relationships". I always have the intention to join evangelism in the community, especially in rural region all over the world, this could include the community where I am living. However, the questions on "how? when? can I? what should I do? I'm not a big group person., Am I doing the right thing? Is it the right intention or what the Holy Spirit told me to do?" always come out in my mind and stop the action I nearly put on. What is Evangelism? Just sharing the gospel? Anything to do after the person accepted Christ? How to spare the gospel?

Often, I would hear from Christians saying, "Going to a mission trip, you must know how to tell the gospel." You know what my heart and mind react on this? I was like..... "WHY???" To me, telling good news and evangelism isn't an a-day thing or onset event. It is a long journey from knowing the person to God touches him/ her life and soul.

I am introvert, as I always told people. However, when comes to the words of God and evangelism event, I am NOT as I told the crowd. I was active in mind, organized, and strictly follow what I have planned. Of course, God always ruined what I had planned and told me to follow what HE had planned. Well, I would say, humanity, as I am not perfect, serve in incomplete community with PERFECT and LOVING GOD. :-)

Back to what I had read this morning, the chapter started with testimony of how the author came to Christ with a simple reason: "Although we alone must make the decision to receive Christ, the relationship that makes a person becomes a Christians is essential and crucial in the beginning."

As in XEE evangelism, we spread the gospel by touching life. This is not a short journey, but it is a long journey to corporate with different people who experiences God's perfectness. How the church can make it success in Evangelism ministry? I have no idea actually, but the main point is welcoming everyone from the community and treat them the same. It looks easy for everyone, but how many people leaving their church just because the church abandons them due to sickness, wickedness, sins, poverty? A church should be a place for everyone. As written in this reading with two main messages of their church,
1. COME AS YOU ARE, where this is a community of imperfect people doing life together, becoming all that God had created us to be. You don't have to scare how people look at you, think of you, who you have voted for the politicians, how much you have earned from your investment or work, or where you stay. Whether you identified yourself as Christians or non-Christians, having an excellent relationship with God or not whole life or you not even sure He is there and exist for you, the church is welcoming you as you are. Just bring your doubts, questions, hurts and fears forwards---- no need to leave anything at the door.

Question: How many of us today judge people as they wear, powered, or outlook? Shouldn't the church is a place where people gathered as a person and accepted who they are?

Well, I was judged when I voiced I tired of my ministry. Still, I do believe God is there to train me with all the crisis. My feeling of the judgement from people might be identified as "I am too sensitive." as I being told by others. I would say, "this is different between introvert and extrovert personality overall, and specifically, it is just the difference of the gift or talent.'

Imaging when a church full of attendees with different level from society, an amazing diversity from bikers, gays alongside straights, politicians, high-techies, Goths, hard-rockers, beggars, homeless, and else, how it will look like? I beat humanity response would be, "how they can join this crowd? I don't like to associate with them! " Wow, although people won't express it out, you may notice on their face. Could you remember any scene from our Bible about gathering of tax collectors and sinners? Yea, the Pharisees felt the same way when these group of people flocked to JESUS. A question to think about: "Am I the Pharisees?"

2. NO PERFECT PEOPLE ALLOWED. Peace does not come in a pipe! Romans 3:23-24, "For all sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus." A church's group or fellowship should not stop the program just because they stole something from the church during the events. However, shouldn't we think of, "have we care for their needs? or fulfil their needs?", by teaching them how to survive or out from poverty, or at least they have enough in their daily needs. Are they experiencing enough LOVE, HOSPITALITY, ACCEPTANCE, and CARING that they have not known previously? If you live what you believe, people will see Christ through you and know you are Christian. Another question to myself again, "Am I putting shoes on the gospel so that I might literally LOVE anyone through good times and bad?"

Community is like salve on the wound of humanity because we were built to be interdependent on each other.

Living in a community where we can have a biblical study among the place. It was not a difficult thing to work out, but I failed to voice out and make it a real event. A foundation strong on Bible, an attractive program between Christian and non-Christian by telling friends around, where everyone is welcoming to meet each other to discuss their doubt, thoughts and happiness or even sadness and worries. Would it be challenging? I have no idea, but I told God I would like to make it real one day, starting in this Calleya community, for the Chinese group of people. Not forcing anyone to believe what I believe, but through caring and loving action to bring them into knowing Christ. Although somewhat cynical, it is probably close to the truth.

I might not know how to answer a person's question on faith, but my God can!! People can laugh or look down on me, just because I know God won't. It is a way to mould me as a vessel or a piece of anything at the end of the world.

Ephesians 2:8-9, "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--- and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--- not by works, so that no one can boast."

Written and saved on Sunday, 17th May 2020 by a servant of the Lord, Helen.

2015-2016

2015,

Blessing year.

Why I say so?

I'm being hurt lots than being understanding.

God, I give thanks to u. As u are worthy to be praised. 

In the beginning of the year 2015, 

God let me celebrate new year with dear❤️

Thanks God for healthy life and peace.

Thanks God for family, friends, enemies, best accompany, people who hurts me, and understanding me.

Thanks for the job, opportunity to join missionary.- bunbury Sunday school ministry and Cambodia mission Team (26/12/15-3/1/16)

Thanks for the strength and faith in you. 

Thanks for your spiritual gifts that put in me.

Thanks for the patient on me.

Thanks for the understanding.

People might not understood what I'm thinking about and I'm weak in express words. Cause of not willing to listen to me instant just give what their understanding. 

Understand their question. I'm being throughly so well. Why not continue it??!!

Everyone have their limitation. Why I can't have mine? Lord, please forgive my frustrated feeling. 

In another way, why I need to keep on hanging around this question. God always there. Why need to put the only eye sight onto people? 

2015, lots of challenges I passed through. Thanks God for his strength. 

On the stage for announcement, alone.

Facing ppl throughout the year; know their needs, being behind supporter, 

Counting the blesses from god, always never ending one.

Christ is enough for me. Cause I'm enough with Jesus Christ; I decided to follow him with his strength. Facing ppl is my weakness, I always asking why God wants to use me? God gave the answer," because you're week, I'm strong to hold u up, and also because I LOVE You.

Remember, God said, I'll be with you until the end of the world. 

2016, is a challenge for me. I know God will always there. 

- service pianist(?)

- bunbury Sunday school

Immanuel Methodist church Sunday School- back up supporter

- social concern 2016-2017

- English and nursing course

- target IELTS for band 7 all criteria.

- Good relationship with our Heavenly Father as well as sociaty.

- know God's more.

- pray for unknown future that God has ready for me.

God always blessing the one who commit themselves to him. I'm not a perfect person in doing God's ministry, but in eyes of God, I'm perfect if I really put my heart on him. God had told through bible, I don't want you to serve me, please do serve your neighbours and people in need, serve the one that Needs JESUS CHRIST.  That died for our sins; rose from the death to show the power of God.

In Jesus' name, I commit myself in God, faith love patient kindness joyful healthy working glory friendship relationship between parents friends and enemies. 

Keep in touch through the book of God.

我

我是一个简单又复杂的🐒，有时可以很天真，也可以有非常强的防御心；

生活上，对于我认定的事，我会去完成；当然它必须已经是在我安全区域。

我很内向，不容易与陌生人亲近；但有人主动亲近，虽然会让人觉得失落，但一旦被我认定了，你就会是我在乎的其中一分子～

我是一个冷静又慌张的一个人；

冷静，

当我知道发生的事我有什么处理的方式，我就会异常的冷静；

当我去了解一个人时，我会非常冷静及静静地听，或许是习惯了；有时，我会无言；请了解我，我只是还不知道，我该怎么表达我那兴奋又紧张又犹豫的心情；

当一些预料的事发生时，我也会冷静；因为知道在你面前了，逃也没有用；我还是要面对的[委屈]

对于未知数的，我已经开始慢慢地冷静处理；只是有时需要一个分析与聆听者；我不会希望你有方法帮助我，安静的聆听我的废话，就是对我一个大帮助了～（＾ω＾）

对于喜欢/单恋的人，[委屈][委屈][委屈]我总是选择默默地喜欢与支持；我喜欢低调，只要不要一直把我抬上水上，我会一直在水里游游的。只要一句话，是离是一起，我都会尊重☺️

我很敏感，直觉也很不错；

时常知道朋友们即将计划的事，

惊喜，往往对我不是惊喜；

既然那么努力计划筹备，我祈求神给你们更多的祝福；[爱你]

不要怪我，可以让我惊喜的事情；少之又少，别露出一点破绽～ 

我也不知道我脑子装了什么～ 

我是个想法很多的人，时常犹豫不决，也有选择困难综合症；时常一件简单的事，有时会变成复杂～ 我不说话，因为我脑子在分析；我喜欢简单，可是有时就这么变成复杂了～家人闺蜜习以为常，因为他们的了解，我的依赖心更强了～

说到依赖性啊～ 对于另一伴、家人、闺蜜，那可是100%；家里的都受不了，你觉得未来的他可以吗？

我不喜欢吵架，不喜欢辩论，不喜欢与人抢；就是不喜欢，赢了局却输了感情，不值得；他，是我的，上帝自然会把他带到我的世界😇

日子要过，现在心里虽有一个人的存在；只是还不是时候～等待吧～当从他口里说了那些话，我想我会完完全全的信任他～不过，不要惊讶我的冷静～因为软弱了，谁都看不到～

慌张，

呵呵呵呵呵呵。。。很多人都看过～ 但，慌张后来的是冷静～通常是哭过，继续面对～ 你不坚强，谁可以帮你，你信任的人，都在大老远呢～

还有，因为在乎所以最容易受到伤害；可能对别人来说不是伤害，但。。。对我确实致命弱点。

我都在真心地对待一切我知道的人，我不知道会得到什么回报，只知道我一定会面对不同的回报～

我会很假也会很真，很矛盾，让人摸不清；误会了，内心担心的，我不会告诉人；误会了，照成伤害了；哭过就算了；没事的😄

不希望全部人都了解我，只要大家都平平安安就好了😆

《荒漠甘泉》2015年8月23日

“亚伯拉罕因着信，蒙召的时候，就遵命出去，往将来要得为业的地方去，出去的时候，还不知往哪里去。”（来11：8）

这就是不凭眼见的信心。凡凭眼见的，就不是凭信心，乃是凭理由了。轮船横渡大西洋，也是本着信心的原则的。我们在海面上看不见什么途径，也看不见什么海岸，我们却能一天过一天在航海图上划着标号。当轮船前行了若干里的时候，我们立刻就会知道我们已经到了什么地方。

但是我们是怎样来测量我们所划的行程的呢？我们的船主每天拿着他的测量器望着天，藉着太阳来规定他的行程。他是藉着天上的光——不是地上的光——来航行的。

信心也是这样航行的——望着天，藉着神的光；虽然并没有看见航线、灯塔、或者途径。许多时候，信心的脚步似乎牵引我们进入了黑暗和灾祸，但是神开了路，夜半变成了黎明。让我们今天也这样前行吧——不是因着知道，乃是因着相信。——译自地上的天上生活

我们中间有许多人常常要先看清路程，才肯起行。这样，怎能在基督里有长进呢？信、望、爱，是不能像长熟的苹果那样从树上摘下来的。创世记一章一节“起初”后面接着就说“神”。神是全能的，神不单引领那自己能帮助自己的人，神也引领那自己不能帮助自己的人。你只要全心倚赖他就是了。

等候神，比用自己的脚，更能迅速抵达我们旅程的终点。

良好的机会，常是因审慎过度失去的。——选

16/8/2015

Thanks God for everything that I had. 

Sometimes I felt so alone. But always remind me that you're be my side.

Thanks God for let me know so many people, help me to learn how to communicate with people with heart. Lord, I'm still weak in this regions but I left it to u as you're my strength when I'm weak.

Everything happened for a reason, my worries can't help much on it but I pray to you Lord to help me go through anything that will happen now..

You know my heart and my mind, please help her to be strong and I pray for the family. I know I can't do anything but just pray for my heart to go through.

Thanks God for everything.

Hope everything fine until I back.

Start our day with God

诗篇5:3 耶和华啊！早晨你必听我的声音；早晨我必向你陈明我的心意，并要警醒。5:3 In the morning, O LORD , you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.

People need to start our day with God . 

心事

此时，夜深人静；我面对的有好多。

部落格，可以变成我书写自己的思想。

我不是什么都不知道，也不是什么都不会。只是，我顾虑太多了。

是的，我想太多了。我过不了自己的那一关。

钱，往往是最伤感情的。真的。不去想，还是会出现的。

我，渐渐已经模糊了自己。我是谁？还是那个我吗？

最后，最近的我，已经有自卑了起来。

我遇到很多挫折，我不懂怎么和人说，为什么沟通那么难呢？上帝啊，我软弱了，我又跌倒缺信了。我知道一切的道理，我知道所有应该去执行的，可是我萎缩了。

父母，是生我养育我的人；在地上你把这职责交托了给他们，要他们教育儿女做个你所喜悦的人，也是我们要孝敬的长辈。

我不会说话，也不擅长；上帝，我是不是很没用啊？有些事，真的放在心里就好，长辈说就听着，只因他们吃盐比我们多，经历的也是比我们还多。

今晚，探讨着【标杆人生】最后一章；我没去看，我出席了团契；
我很多反思；【敬拜】，【团契】，【门徒】，【事奉】，【宣教】；
我走到现在，都是靠着主的恩典；我还要求什么呢？还有什么使我信心软弱呢？使我跌到呢？魔鬼正在做工，是的，我好像快要被攻破了，或许已经攻破了。
我，基督徒之家长大，也是非常积极参与主里服侍；服侍久了，我厌倦了，付出久了，也出现懒惰现象。是的，我清楚我不是为人而服侍，乃是为神；只是需要休息了。

我知道我的不足，也知道自己的惰性；我还在迷茫徘徊在这路上。敲敲心里，“耶稣，耶稣，我是不是把你从我心的宝座落了下来？是不是被世俗的诱惑烦恼都占据了？”

是的，我迷茫了。我没有大哭过，没有放手大哭。真的，我可能需要大哭。我受的挫折，我经历过的；我都很害怕。主，有没有一个人，可以借我一个肩膀，让我可以很坦诚的大哭一场？

我很想大哭，可是世人都告诉我，哭是解决不了任何问题的。是的，所以泪水乖乖的躲在眼眶里不出来。我的心里有很多恐惧，车祸过了九年，我还是很恐惧汽车，可是你还是要驾车，因为你有能力就不能麻烦人家。婆婆回天家也快十年了，我还是离不开那阴影，我害怕最亲人的离去；我不想面对，虽然我知道他们只是睡了，在主里休息了。

我存在，我知道神要用我；我只有凭信心祈求与感恩，我知道上帝知道的。
【敬拜】每一分每一秒每一个呼吸一举一动，都是在敬拜；因为我是上帝的儿女。
【团契】在主里彼此相爱，爱人如己，爱自己如爱友人，彼此沟通配搭，建立神的身体。
【门徒】听到主话，活出行动；以基督为榜样，学习他的样式
【事奉】为主来服侍
【宣教】为基督传天国的福音。

我将我所愿所求的交托给主。主啊，不是照我自己的主意，乃是一切找你的旨意赐给我；我愿意等待，求主帮助我继续忍耐聆听你的旨意，也求你让我有颗顺服的心来面对着世界时代的挑战。

不再见 - 陈学冬
（电影《小时代3:刺金时代》插曲）
词：郭敬明 落落
曲：李荣浩

离别没说再见 你是否心酸
转身寥寥笑脸 不甘的甘愿
也许下个冬天 也许还十年
再回到你身边 为你撑雨伞

剩几个夜晚 再几次晚安
等你摘下还戴上指环
原谅捧花的我盛装出席
只为错过你
祈祷天灾人祸
分给我只给你这香气
但我卑微奢求
让我存留些许的气息
好让你在梦里能
想起我曾紧抱你的 力气

以后遇见风雪 有新的雨伞
为我留的灯盏 能不能别关
不要为我伤感 别被绝望打断
不能一起的白头 也别让风雪染

再一个明天 下一世人间
等我再为你戴上指环
原谅捧花的我盛装出席
却只为献礼
目送洁白纱裙路过
我对他说我愿意
但我继续清扫门前的路
和那段阶梯
如果你疲惫时
别忘记那里还能停留 休息

原谅捧花的我盛装出席
只为错过你
祈祷天灾人祸
分给我只给你这香气
我想大言不惭卑微奢求
来世再爱你
希望每晚星亮入梦时
有人来代替我 吻你